TW: mental health diagnosisOne thing I've never really talke..

TW: mental health diagnosisOne thing I've never really talked about is that I got diagnosed with bipolar disorder this year. Getting that diagnosis answered so many questions for me. I started therapy and a new medication, and I don't experience anything like I did a year ago. I had most of the symptoms for bipolar disorder, but I had no idea that the things I was experiencing was defined as any sort of mental illness. Yes, I've experienced a lot of trauma in the last five years or so (that's a topic for another day), but I just kind of dealt with the emotional turmoil that came with it.It was difficult to get through most days. There were things happening that I couldn't explain. Of course I was depressed, but I couldn't hardly eat and when I did eat the food tasted like plastic. I felt like I was losing touch with reality because nothing felt real. I would feel like I was floating sometimes and would feel like things and people weren't real.I've dealt with a lot of trauma and I guess it was subconsciously affecting me. I had super high highs and extremely low lows. I had intrusive thoughts and hallucinations, etc. My thoughts would run so fast and I would just talk to my friends for hours and hours, almost talking in a loop (it's defined as rumination or ruminating). I used to sleep 2 hours every night (if that) and feel just fine.Those aren't the only symptoms I was experiencing, but I said all that to say I'm so fucking glad I started therapy and got prescribed the proper medication to treat my mental illness.I was against even getting on medication at first, but it's helped me in so many different aspects of my life. I sleep better. I eat better. I don't have paranoia or delusional/intrusive thoughts and hallucinations. I don't have extremely high highs and extremely low lows. I feel like I can focus now. I'm just so glad I chose to start taking care of myself and asked for help. You should always take care of yourself, too! Drink water. Make sure you eat. Take a multivitamin once a day. Go to your primary doctor. Go to therapy. Just please take care of yourself and love yourself because you matter and you're worth it!