I’m so excited after living in this house for over a year I’..

I’m so excited after living in this house for over a year I’ve finally got my desk back 💖 Some of you may remember what events lead up to us moving from what we thought was our “dream/forever home”. It turns out the grass isn’t always greener, newer and bigger isn’t always better and you never realize how much of an impact your neighbors may have on you. I had so much mom guilt leaving our last home my kids loved it, hubs liked it (he doesn’t have favorites but he did like that house more than any other house and more than this one) and at first yes I loved it too minus the kitchen it just made the house feel dark and their definitely was not windows to let in all the natural light that I need to survive…but I could have stayed we could have been content but my mental Health took a huge hit when I became the gossip of the neighborhood and everyone on our street avoided our family like the plague like we were some kind of infectious disease all bc they found out I had an onlyfans. I had an onlyfans for 6 months before everyone found out and up until that point we would always be outside bumping the volleyball, chatting and hanging out with the neighbors and my little one played with all the girls on the street. But once they all found out they completely shut us out to the point of the second we stepped outside everyone would shut their garage doors and go inside. They found my Twitter (which I don’t post on btw) they would screen record and take screen shots of pics or clips I would post and share it amongst each other. It was like Mean Girls at its worst. They called my place if employment to try and have me fired. My daughter lost her friends I stopped going outside and isolated myself indoors and would only leave from my garage. I just couldn’t take it anymore I was losing myself. The last week we were there a neighbor who I again thought was my friend (also a fellow nurse) walked up to me and was asking questions about my new job since I had left my old one…she seemed so kind and genuine and it felt nice to have a conversation and for a moment I thought maybe I was wrong maybe this was all in my head but then she said “you know your new boss is my best friend” in that moment my heart sank and I was so hurt and angry and myself for believing that she was being genuine and kind when really she just wanted me to know that I wasn’t escaping the hell I was living and that by knowing her best friend was now my boss would be hanging over my head. My boss is her best friend and I’m thankful that if she knows she doesn’t care and it doesn’t impact me at work or how I care for my patients. Sorry for the long post not sure how I ended thinking this but it was coming to me as I was posting this and I guess I felt the need to share 🤷🏼‍♀️💖 Oh now I remember the point lol…I’m seriously typing out every thought as it comes me haha…anyway this house is older needed a lot of TLC but we are slowly making it ours and my girls and hubs are such a great support and happy to see that I’m in a better place mentally. I have kept my distance from neighbors I’m kind bc that’s who I genuinely am and I say hello but I’m not looking to make friends or draw attention to myself. 💖 anyway if you made it this far thank you for taking the time and letting me share a little more about me with you!! 💖